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That Awful Phone Call

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PLEASE DOWNLOAD THIS IMPORTANT DOCUMENT AND KEEP A COPY FOR YOURSELF.  I don't know how long this will remain on DA.

IF YOU ARE MY TRUE FRIEND, PLEASE DOWNLOAD THIS AND SAVE A COPY.  THIS CHRONICLES THE EVENTS LEADING UP TO MY BULLYING BY OS PEOPLE.

The Last Few Years of My Life
Chapter 4
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(This account of real/true events is written from memory, many years after the incident occured and without referring to old correspondences or notes [as doing so might be very painful])...

I believe this was the afternoon of Jul 18, 2008.  This was possibly the day the bullying/cyberbullying against me by my own people started.  If not that day, within the days and weeks which followed.

As mentioned earlier, I had just joined an online "community" for people who love inanimate "objects" and to my Delight, the founder of this subculture, a woman from Sweden named Eija-Riita, had just been in contact with me for the first time (a month and a half after I first tried to contact her, and just over a month after I was admitted into a similar online "community" of such people founded by a former member of her group named "erika")

I believe I must have turned on my cellphone after work that day (I was working as a software developer in Washington DC at the time at an organization that is just shy of being a household word) and found a voicemail notification waiting...

For whatever reason, I went to Georgetown before listening to my messages and actually went down near the river to play the message back (on the C&O canal trail).

I pulled out my phone and checked my voicemail.  The message was from erika, the woman claiming to marry The Eiffel Tower.

I was so nervous and excited that I fumbled my phone so bad that I deleted the first voicemail from erika.  The woman who married The Tower _had just called me_ after all.  I mean look at this from my perspective.  And this was _the morning after_ the day I was able to communciate now for the first time with the woman [from Sweden of course] who founded the most important cause in my life (The most important cause in my life before I heard about these people, after I joined them, after they collaboratively abused me, and currently).  So yeah, I was now in touch with two people "famous" for the most important cause in my world/life.  It's no mystery here why I did not work a _cellphone_ at that moment.

Not sure what happened next.  I think erika called me back.  Please note that the reason erika even had my phone number is because days ago she had told me that there were a lot of online chats going on between OSI members and after she invited me to join them I gave her my number and asked her to call me if any were coming up.  I now believe that it is very likely that those online chats were being conducted to convey to other OSI members exactly the information conveyed to me below and do so in a "less tracable/less preservable" manner.

NOTE:  The below is not exact quotes.  The below is an attempt to recreate the content of what was conveyed to me on that day years later.  The conversation was real and things of this nature were indeed communicated (The meaning of the conversation is the same as the one which actually transpired).  If I could have recorded the call, I would have now, but I did not realize at the time I was speaking to an abusive and corrupt "leader".

I believe I had gotten a second voicemail from erika and I returned the call.  I think she said she was at a friend's house (or maybe this was future calls between I and erika).  This makes sense in retrospect.  She was committing a lot of misdeeds at this time and did not want to be tracked or give out her own information.

erika (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "Hello"

Me (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "Yes is Erika there?"

erika (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "This is erika.  The reason I have called you is because there is a problem"

Me (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): (nervously) "A problem?"

erika (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "Yes, involving Eija-Riitta"

Me (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "Who?" (I'm not sure I asked this question, but _may have_ as I'd never heard this very uncommon first name pronounced before)

erika (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "The woman I admitted to the group Last night"

Me (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): (nervously, as I was perhaps wondering if Eija-Riitta had a problem with me, especially after how hard it had been to connect with her) "Oh... Ok, let's just get this over with then"

erika (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "You know she's in the group now.  I made her a moderator and she has stolen the membership list from my group and she is recruiting people to join her own group"

Me (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "I see"

erika (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "Eija-Riitta has made a lot of people angry.  There have been people who have left [our cause] sometimes forever because of her.  Some of these people are never coming back.  Eija-Riitta expects people to 'fight for' our cause.  She is very angry and this has driven a lot of people away.  She is also an alcoholic.  And also a Communist.  She does not really work.  She's only ever worked for her parent's pharmacy.  Eija-Riita is not a very good leader and lets people into the group who are not safe, such as the user 'deadcat' whose name is an obvious attack at herself.  People feel unsafe and lots of us have left forever as a result."

[AUTHOR NOTE: I cannot think of the actual username that 'deadcat' was at this moment, but was something along those lines]

Me (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "So why are you telling me this?  What does this have to do with me?"

erika (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "Because I'm trying to get everyone in one place.  People should all be in my group"

Me (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "Well what I know of Communism is that this was a noble idea but this failed because of human nature.  Basically because people aren't set up to be kind to each other.  It's only the means by which most Communist countries must be run that is really the problem with Communism.  As for being angry about the cause, I can see why someone like us would want to further our interests."

erika (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "You don't understand.  She gets really angry and she says nasty things to group members who are not willing to fight for the cause.  This is what I want you to do.  I want you to leave her Yahoo group and I want you to make a post there saying that you felt the group just wasn't for you.  No.  I want you to post this to my group instead."

Me (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "To help convince other people not to join her group?"

erika (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "Exactly"

Me (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "Erika.  I agree with you that it's best to have all of our kind in one place, but I also have a problem here.  The entire history of our cause is in her Yahoo group, and if I leave, I cannot read this any longer...  And besides, what about Eija-Riitta's feelings?"

[AUTHOR NOTE: My first opinion expressed in the above statement would later change because of how they treated me after this incident]

erika (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "Don't worry about that.  If anything happens over there that you need to know about, I will tell you about it."

Me (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "I'll think about it.  Meanwhile, I'll try to pursuade Eija-Riitta to abandon her group and only useOSI"

erika (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "Eija-Riitta is angry, she's a Communist, and doesn't work or do anything with her life.  She only runs her museum.  The way she runs her group is not safe.  Just leave her group and post in my group that the place just wasn't for you"

[AUTHOR NOTE:  Eija-Riitta runs some sort of guilotine and Berlin Wall museum.  I do not know the extent of her project back then or currently]

Me (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "I don't want to leave her group.  As I said, the entire history of my people is there and I waited decades to find them.  I will try however to help get everyone on OSI"

erika (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "I have been meaning to mention by the way that I like a lot of the insightful and intelligent posts you have made to my group.  I have been considering you as a possible co-moderator"

Me (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "Oh, I'm really not interested in that.  I've spent a long time trying to find my own people and I just want to be an ordinary member of OSI"

[AUTHOR NOTE: I'd been trying to find OS people since 2003 with my own website.  I was tired of that game.  I was just glad to finally be home.]

(I think then the conversation then temporarily detered to talking about I and amanda's [and possibly other users'] excited happy conversation on the group that night and just how many posts had resulted that night from all that.  erika I think then may have then made a point to remind me that "this is not a race" and perhaps that this kind of thing might annoy users who do not speak English as their first language.  I don't remember if that charge was trumped up later by erika or told to me then (And we were just people socializing on a website, so what was the big deal?).  But _one thing was very clear_.  erika seemed to be very much on a "Dave is a great member of OSI"-kick rather than anything else...  This begs the question: "If I really was the bad member of OSI that erika would say I was a week or so later, why wasn't she telling me now?  If other users were complaining about my behavior in the group, why wasn't she telling me now while she had me right on the phone?  And how come the woman who loved the boomboxes seemed to know nothing about any "complaints" against me after erika eventually kicked me out of OSI later?"  These are important questions that need to be asked by anyone investigating the leadership corruption at OSI.  It seems to me at this point that erika was still in the business of doling out carrots cause I wasn't 'yet' determined to need _the stick_.

Later this phone conversation went into other "carrots" erika tried to offer me:

erika (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "By the way, you mentioned Julienne.  The font you love.  I work a lot with fonts, and I can identify this font for you.  I'm making up a file right now with examples of her... I will then e-mail this to you."

[AUTHOR NOTE:  If you want to see this font, I can send you links]

Me (this conversation is simulated years after the fact): "Wow...  Thanks!  I look forward to getting that... Anything I can know about her is very useful to me."

[AUTHOR NOTE:  I still have this file from erika and will upload this to the private DA group if anyone wants to see what erika sent me... In fact I have entire archives of stuff related to erika if anyone wants to see them, such as stuff her minions have petitioned websites to remove in the past]

Then something strange happened.  It was like erika didn't want to end the phone call, but didn't want to talk anymore either.  She was doing other things (I think on the computer) while on the call (Maybe she was talking to amanda or someone about what to do about me on the computer :-D).  I could sense that she was not interested in talking to me at the moment, but yet she was not excusing herself from the phone call.  Finally, I just thanked her for the stuff related to the font and excused myself.  The call was now over.

This simulation of the call is not necessarily entirely accurate (as I said, this is what I can remember years after the event).  During the call, I seem to recall that erika kept coming back to her "shopping list" of Eija-Ritta's flaws.  I felt like erika was "stuck in a loop".  The nearest analogy I can think of is some of these malfunctioning AI computers in sci-fi movies and television where (usually moments before their death) they are making last ditch efforts to cope with circumstances that have completely thrown them a loop.  I was reminded of stuff like Landru and Nomad (in StarTrek TOS).  I got the distinct impression that erika had given this same spiel to my people over and over again, and that I was _the first person_ that didn't automatically jump to a "Yes Ma'am".

The fact of the matter is that erika does not own this cause (she only does in her mind and in the minds of people she has fooled and lied to).  she merely stole this cause away from Eija-Riitta by doing things like what is depicted above.  Nobody owns this cause.  People who love "objects" should be free, and I think Eija-Riitta back then would have wanted that too.

I was also told some other things during that phone call.

- I was told that a girl named Amy Wolfe was kicked out of OSI because she apparenly tried to leak private information about OS people in an attempt to get extra media attention.  Was this the real story?  Or was Amy just another person like me who somehow refused to obey erika's quest for power?  (The timing is interesting as Amy probably was blackballed right around the time OSI was born)... Also I think it's important to bring up something called "projection" that psychologists theorize about.  Was erika projecting her own insane desire for media attention onto Amy?  I think this is likely.

- I was told that though Eija-Riitta had been made a co-moderator at OSI, that all her posts were "moderated" by erika.  erika had said that all of ER's posts had to first be approved by erika because of the angry things she'd sometimes say.  It is important to note that I have had Yahoo groups myself, and if there is a feature to "moderate" (only allow posts to go through with approval) a single member's post that I am not aware of this feature.  There _is_ however a feature to do this to "all new members".  This is probably what erika was referring to.

In any event, that night I was _DELighted_.  I was hopped up with excitement of 1) having Eija-Riitta in my life, and 2) having gotten to speak live with the woman who married The Eiffel Tower.  The next day I would begin asking myself though: "What was it on OSG [ER's group] that erika didn't want me to see?"...  At that time, this was the best theory I had.  What was on that group I wasn't supposed to see?  I read a lot of messages the next day.  There was one of my kind threatening suicide for some reason, but I really hadn't found anything.  Later I'd come to the conclusion this theory wasn't the correct one.  Nowadays I don't think erika was trying to prevent me from reading messages there but that she wanted to take ER's place as the worldwide media "go to" person for OS.  I believe today that I got shafted only out of erika's desire to be famous and this was the whole reason for this "hostile take-over" of our cause.

Another question that needs to be asked is this:  "If Eija-Ritta really stole the OSI membership list, _WHY_ were there several members from OSI _already on ER's group when I arrived there the next day after ER was allowed to join OSI?  These people had been there _FOR DAYS_ and seemed to mostly be new members of OSI like myself(?).  I think this is proof that erika made up her story about ER stealing the membership list.  I think what really happened was that these people had found Eija-Riita _on their own_ and started joining her group _on there own_.  I think erika may have left ER "for dead" (like I have now been) and was now finding out that the only way to beat ER was to suck back up to her and let her be a co-mod on OSI.  That's what I think really happened in Jul 2008.

(Possibly to be continued)
(An absolutely true story)

The Last Few Years of My Life:  That Awful Phone Call

For previous part, you can go here: 

The Weeks Before The EndThe Last Few Years of My Life
Chapter 3: The Weeks Before The End
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(This story is absolutely true as far as I can remember accurately.  I have not gone back to re-read old posts as this I am sure would be very painful [I never delete anything OS related pretty much, but I don't feel like digging back through this right now].  I am doing this recount mainly from memory)
When I became a member of osi I was absolutely delighted, cause as I said, I was simply happy to be where I thought was "home"...  I spent as much time as I possibly could on that site.  Could you possibly blame me?  After all, I had waited 3 or 4 decades to find others like me and there they were.  There was someone attracted to a ferry, someone attracted to a train station, a girl attracted to doorclosers, and many many more.  This was one of the things that was great about the place.  I have been in OS organizations for the love of o


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The Next Part of My True Story(Emergency Preliminary Draft)
I am dying and my story needs to be told...
Anyway, after Eija-Riitta invited me to join her Yahoo group and erika told me to abandon Eija-Riitta's project and I did not everything got really bad for me...
But first see this from my perspective.  I got to talk to _the founder of my subculture_.  I was now in _her Yahoo group_.
And Eija-Riitta was NICE to me!!!!!
I was coming off osi where I felt I couldn't discuss anything important to me and coming onto osg (ER's group) and ER was photographing stuff around her place that had the words and names I am attracted to on them.
Now you know I am attracted to an elevator system today, but back then I was attracted to a two letter word.  So this stuff was INCREDIBLE to me back then.
I became less and less happy with osi and more and more happy with ER and ER's Yahoo Group.
And sadly all of these friends I'd made on osi were now disappearing one by one.  They weren't corresponding with me much
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BlackFoxAsakura's avatar
Sometimes I would want to find and kill those eRIKA and aMANDA.... They prooves that some women deserves to be punched in the face.
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